I was looking at myself in the mirror and it made me start thinking about time and how you always think you have more of it. Lives change in a matter of seconds. You hear people say, "live each day like its your last with someone". I always thought that was just a silly cliche people had a habit of spouting out. Now, I see. Now, I know what it is to have someone taken suddenly, unexpectedly. You're left in shock not knowing exactly what to do or think. Then you grieve. And grieving is interesting because some days you're fine and you think you're holding up pretty well. Then some days, you're a crying mess. I think of Mom often, every day, and keep saying things I think she would have said in given situations. She was so funny all the time and loved telling her jokes. That's when I remember to thank God for giving me 38 years with my Mother. I was blessed to have someone who I could always call at any hour of the day. If I called my Mom in the middle of the night, she wouldn't get mad cause I called her late, she was concerned and wanted to help me. There's not many people who wouldn't mind late night calls like that.
But I have all of my support in place. I feel close to God. I feel Him pulling me up, lifting me out of darkness. Love and support you get from your family and friends is so overwhelming and much needed. We all feel connected in some way and need to lean on one another to get through adversity.
Reading is my life also. One of the books I've been reading is Jesus Today and its filled with inspiring bible verses and stories beside them. There are too many verses which I highlighted but want to list a few of them here.
"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that He may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you." 1 Peter 5:6-7
"The Lord your God in your midst, the Might One, will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing." Zephaniah 3:17
"I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory." Psalm 73:23-24.
Jesus immediately said to them: "Take courage! It is I. Do not be afraid." Matthew 14:27
"You will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:13